During the month of June, I was spending a lot of time trying to discern my next steps. Not that I was unhappy with what I do, just that I considered that I had a bit too much free time and was trying to figure out the best way to be of service to the world while also fulfilling my life's purpose (really, the same thing). Taking this unconventional career path has sometimes been lonely, and I was struggling to figure out what was next. (In my usual, impatient way.) Would I grow my Reiki practice? Would I open a physical space? Would I start applying for more traditional jobs with an employer? Etc. You get the picture. In my heart, I trusted that the path would be revealed to me, but in my weaker moments, I just wanted the directions already, darn it!
Then, I began to notice the sweetness of every day. In that in between time, I realized that it didn't matter what I would be doing to fill my time in the future because what I was doing in the present was so amazing. This is the basic teaching of mindfulness, but somehow it was really illuminated to me. This week, this has meant the sweetness of spending time with my family and also time alone. I have met some new people, attended some yoga classes, taught some yoga classes, done several loads of laundry, have prepared and eaten some great food, been witness to some amazing elements of nature, and have engaged in many profound and ordinary conversations, among other things.
Now, I have an idea of what might be coming next, but, as on pilgrimage, I will continue to focus on the gifts of the path, and I will trust that what comes next will be even greater than I imagine.
Copyright 2018 Nancy C Murray